LIVING TOGETHER WITH THE CUTEST GUY IN OUR DEPARTMENT (4. GAY LIFE) ………Continuation…….

I had imagined many things with those guys I was attracted with. I’m sure everyone understands what I mean. When you are inspired, there are many inspiring things you can assume and think of, right? That moment when we were together at the same classroom and we even seated together made my whole college years the most and the best thing ever happened in my life. Yes, starting that moment, we were together and never separated in class. We were living in the same roof starting 2^nd semester of 2^nd year college and we even worked together for almost 3 years in the same school we were teaching. I am with him for 7 years straight, not because as his lover but as his best friend. Well for me, there were many times I thought of more than that but the reality told me, our relationship was limited  to being best friends and never be more than that. But, those years of being together, we had shared many bromance stuffs. I had done many things intentionally and even planned something to get his heart.

Starting from the enrollment of 2^nd Semester of 2^nd year college until our internship, we always enrolled together for us to be in the same section. He had noticed that his grades were improving because we always studied together, helped each other, cheated with our answers in the exam/quiz and did our projects together. Sometimes, we got together with our classmates but most of the time we were alone together. His fraternity friends felt bad because he can’t go with them and attend their meetings and they told him about us. We were like gay couple and his friends were afraid if I might take advantage on him. His friends treated me us gay person and I’m sure our classmates too. One time, one of our friendly professors told me if I did confess my feeling to him because why we were always together. The other professor called our attention because I did answer his homework and my penmanship was very clear on that paper. He told us, what I did was perjury. But what I loved most was, our male handsome professor told us that what we did together was exemplary. We did our best together to get high grades then he told us, he had someone with him too when he was still studying.

I did many things for him especially after his wedding day. Yes, he got married to a woman. After being so close with him for 9 months and he was very busy after the wedding. He had family to take care of and study at the same time. His schooling was affected but I tried my best to study hard for me to share with him during examination/quiz day and of course we tried our best not to get caught by our professors. Yes, the reality clearly told me that I don’t have a chance anymore. After his wedding, I checked my feeling for him and start thinking of him as my best friend. It was really hard not because I can’t accept he was married but because I can’t think of him as my best friend. Still, I’m madly in love with him.

He was married but our closeness was getting better and better. I felt, he truly cared for me as his best friend. We always stayed together, prayed together, sang together, ate together, exercised together and studied together. This was my life with him during our college years. The other thing we did together many times was watching pornography (it was not gay porn though). Yes, many times. I saw everything in him and in fact, I had been fantasizing him for many times. Not only had we watched porn but masturbate together and I can’t forget his reaction when he reached the peak. I remembered, we agreed to do a hand job and I did but he realized it was gay thing so he let me stopped. He loved wearing boxer shorts and I liked him so much wearing those because I can clearly saw his bulge. When he was sleeping, I always stared at him watching everything in him (I was careful then if he wakes up or his wife might see me).

He knew I am gay for sure (Yes, he confirmed after my coming out) but we never talked about it. Not only I had helped his schooling but also his family. When his wife delivered their two sons, I was there helping every errand I can do. I am one of the godfathers of all his sons. Sometimes, I sub as a mother (hehehe) because many times, we brought his sons to the doctor for immunization because his wife can’t go due to health condition. I was closed to their children. In fact, from the bed of my heart, I treated them as my own sons. It took many years before my feeling was sure of treating him as truly my best friend and nothing more (went abroad helped me).

It happened; we were living in the same roof because the parents of his wife helped me to work as working student. I moved out from the gay couple who hired me to do the household chores and stayed with them. That time on, we were together in everything, from 2^nd semester of 2^nd year college until we graduated and then until 3 years working together in the same school.

To be continued…………….

My role in this life (gay life)

The time when my mind opened (gay life)

The best thing ever happened in my life (gay life)

THE BEST THING EVER HAPPENED IN MY LIFE (3. GAY LIFE)....Continuation...

Infatuation love is part of our lives. It plays as our inspiration especially if that someone we like is at our school/classroom/close to us. There were many guys I like when I was still a student and even until now. Well, I had the best thing ever happened in my life. It happened when I started my college years. I enrolled in education program in a community college because it’s cheap. I don’t find it as a standard school because I would like to study in a big university but since my family doesn’t have enough money so I ended studying in a community college (only later, I appreciate the quality and standard of the school).

My family is a market vendor. We have a farm but it doesn’t give much to support our studies and the basic needs every day. I help my parents to sell fruits at the public market starting when I was in Grade 7 until 1^st year college. In fact, I doubled my time during my 1^st year in college because the tuition fee is big. So, I sell fruits during daytime and study at night time. I have told myself to study hard since this time is for the sake of my future.

During the first semester, I was in section C and the elementary education department has 3 sections (A, B and C). The first month, I knew my classmates from section C but only few from sections A and B. I have noticed some of the cute guys in my section but I’m not that into them until one day. The girls from my section were screaming because the cutest guy from section A passed by in our section and I peeped from the window. I was hit by his cuteness, it’s my first time seeing him and indeed he was the cutest guy in our department.

From that time on, I can’t help myself thinking of him, I imagined many events in my mind of how we meet and get his heart and finally making love. I felt like crazy back then and he really became my inspiration to go to school even I’m sick because I just wanted to see him. Some of our professors were the same since we were in the same department and our professors update us with the result of the exam or long quiz and sometimes, we asked the result from other sections, so we knew who excelled in every section and I am one of them from section C. He didn’t know me until the 1^st semester closed and all I can do was thinking of him.

I was so happy during the 2^nd Semester because we were in the same section (A).  The education department had few guys, few gays and many girls. In our batch, we were around hundred plus and around 20 guys including gays. But my happiness was just until 3 days because he transferred to section C. His friends were there. But then I was happy again because one of my close friends from high school transferred to my school so we went together during vacant time. One night, while we were talking with my close girl friend, we were talking about our crush at school then I told her how deeply I am in love with that guy in our department. Only her knew about it and no one from my section until the second semester ended.

My family cannot pay my tuition fee for the next school year. So, I decided to work and study. A gay couple hired me for household chores work. I stayed in their house and studied at night time. So, I was a working student starting the 2^nd year of my college years.

During the 1^st day of 1^st semester (2^nd year college), I was so upset because I was the only guy in my section. But during the 2^nd day, I was surprised even my other classmates because the cutest guy in our department went inside our section and looking for a seat. I knew that time he was in our section but in my mind, he might transfer again where his friends are. During the first period, he was sitting at the back of the classroom. I guess, he noticed, we were the only two guys in the classroom. After our professor went out, the class started talking with each other until one of our religious classmates told us that we are going to form a religious club and anyone can join regardless of our religious background. I came from religious family, 5 of my father’s brothers were pastors and my father was deacon at the church and I’m pretty knowledgeable of the Bible and in fact I have memorized many verses.

I have realized that he was actually a Christian and he told us, he was a new Christian. That time, four of us circled together talked something about our beliefs, we all shared together but I shared a lot because I memorized many verses. When the next professor entered the classroom, he asked me to sit beside me and I was dying of happiness deep in my heart. That week, he was forced by his friends to transfer so that if there’s activity in their fraternity, he can join anytime. But thank God, he didn’t transfer. That was the start of my everyday happiness. I felt like the school was heaven because the guy sitting beside me was the cutest guy in our department and I’m totally in love with him.

To be continued………

The time when my mind opened (gay life)

My role in this life (gay life)